58 - Phone

[ceasetoexist]

I lived through it. All of it.

I guess when I first got here I would have said that to brag, but now I guess I want to say....I dunno. That if that's their worst? It can still be beaten.

God. I don't know. I suck at being all "blah blah hope blah blah it'll be fine" since it's usually bullcrap. But I guess I'm just saying. What happened sucked, but it's not like...the most hopeless thing ever.

They're scared. That's what I think. It's why they went this far. I dunno if we're on to something but we must have done something right to make them do something that drastic.

Because you know what I think? They're demanding we be thankful? They need us to. I don't know why yet, but it's necessary for whatever system they've got going on. Think about it. The demand for conformity, the droning to what's desired if we don't. They need us to be here and act a specific way, because if we don't....well, I dunno. I think that it's that if we exist here for long enough, not doing what they want? We compromise their system. They need us to behave a certain way or something doesn't stick, or the stability of this place'll start going off, or something.

That's what I think.

Hey. Idiots. And I'm pretty sure you know which ones I'm talking to? Not that I care or anything, but call me if you can, y'know, manage to use the phone.

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[redtogold.livejournal.com]

[Gash is fairly serious, his tone sharper than normal. Earlier, he felt worthless, afraid, and so very small. Even so, he can't- won't dwell on it. He almost regrets acting that way. After all, there is always hope, no matter what.]

If that is what we have to do. I... I don't want this place to control anyone any longer.

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[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Pretty much.

We've gotta keep playing keep away with what they want. ...I dunno if things can get worse or if that's all they had, but it's worth a shot.

[redtogold.livejournal.com]

If things are bad, I-

I promise to be stronger this time. I will.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...You did what you could, runt.

Don't feel bad, stupid.

[redtogold.livejournal.com]

But-

I wanted to protect everyone. Somehow.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

You can never protect everyone, stupid.

Sometimes you can't even protect what you have.

You just...need to do what you can, I guess.

[It's a lesson he's only learning now too, Gash. Yeah. It sucks.]

[redtogold.livejournal.com]

[Suddenly he's remembering just before his arrival: Mumu's dead sister; their neglect because of his inability to be everywhere at once. It is similar, his state in Mayfield.

But something won't let him accept just leaving things as is.]

Even if I cannot, I will still try.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Good.

You doing okay? Were you okay after...getting away from the cannibals?

[redtogold.livejournal.com]

Unu. Thanks to Pokey-dono's actions, I was- am fine.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...Good.

It was nothing. Don't even think about it.