58 - Phone

[ceasetoexist]

I lived through it. All of it.

I guess when I first got here I would have said that to brag, but now I guess I want to say....I dunno. That if that's their worst? It can still be beaten.

God. I don't know. I suck at being all "blah blah hope blah blah it'll be fine" since it's usually bullcrap. But I guess I'm just saying. What happened sucked, but it's not like...the most hopeless thing ever.

They're scared. That's what I think. It's why they went this far. I dunno if we're on to something but we must have done something right to make them do something that drastic.

Because you know what I think? They're demanding we be thankful? They need us to. I don't know why yet, but it's necessary for whatever system they've got going on. Think about it. The demand for conformity, the droning to what's desired if we don't. They need us to be here and act a specific way, because if we don't....well, I dunno. I think that it's that if we exist here for long enough, not doing what they want? We compromise their system. They need us to behave a certain way or something doesn't stick, or the stability of this place'll start going off, or something.

That's what I think.

Hey. Idiots. And I'm pretty sure you know which ones I'm talking to? Not that I care or anything, but call me if you can, y'know, manage to use the phone.

Comments

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

But you can experience things without becoming wise.

Yeah? And what's the usual way you're talking about?

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Forgotten, fading away and left for new things.

Or dead, in alley, with bullet from mugger in guts.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a fun time.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Chicago is not kind place.

Though only desperate person would mug old man in old, cheap clothing.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Desperate or just serious a-holes.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Very true. I have known many such A holes.

I am not fan of guns, though. Even if they do deter certain bad folk from certain bad ideas.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Yeah? Funny story. So have I.

...They're alright. I kinda suck with 'em, so hey. Can't say much about how useful they are.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

It is just new tool to preform old job.

Old tools still work, even if out of style.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Eh, got that right.

But I'm someone more interested in the "new", I gotta admit.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

People usually are. Grow bored with old things and move on.

I am too old for new things. I will watch what future brings.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...You sure you're too old for 'em?

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

For guns? Not so much.

For what comes next? Probably.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

What about all the crap that isn't, y'know. Weapons.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

You mean TV and computers?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Eh, sure. I mean there's more that's being made than that, but those are the important things.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Those will become outdated soon enough. So will next big thing.

So hard to keep up with next generation's discarded toys.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Maybe.

So how old are you anyway?

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

As I am now?

Only little over century.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

That's not too old.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Not in comparison.

My name is much older than this old man. Country I was born into was only around century before me.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...So like, you came from a line of people, or you just...reincarnate into people, or what?

I'm not fully sure I get what you're getting at.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Reincarnate?

That is probably close enough to truth. I am reborn wherever my people bring me.

Over century ago, that was America which this town is mockery of.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Huh.

Guess that's kind of nifty if, you know. Immortality is really what you want.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Is good for some, not so good for others.

No one is truely immortal, though. One day, name will be forgotten and tohers will take place.