[Oh, and he does want it. He wants it bad, Lucas. But does he feel like he deserves it? Not really. Honestly, he doesn't feel like he deserves much of anything at the moment. Just an odd sense of guilt, and just sadness and irritation after discovering the truth about the dairy. And just the gnawing feeling that it should've been him instead of any of the others he knew that got droned.
But he can't say that, not to anyone and especially not to you. He just needs to find a way to alleviate some of his guilt, and even if it is his? It feels like he'd still be stealing from you. Whatever yyou went through to get it, you probably did more then he ever did. Is more deserving in general.]
....Sometimes you need to let things go. Or they eat you alive.
[And right now. This is the easiest thing he has to let go. And he says that still not looking at you, doing his best to hide the utterly beaten expression on his face from you.]
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Date: 2011-04-03 02:22 am (UTC)But he can't say that, not to anyone and especially not to you. He just needs to find a way to alleviate some of his guilt, and even if it is his? It feels like he'd still be stealing from you. Whatever yyou went through to get it, you probably did more then he ever did. Is more deserving in general.]
....Sometimes you need to let things go. Or they eat you alive.
[And right now. This is the easiest thing he has to let go. And he says that still not looking at you, doing his best to hide the utterly beaten expression on his face from you.]