58 - Phone

[ceasetoexist]

I lived through it. All of it.

I guess when I first got here I would have said that to brag, but now I guess I want to say....I dunno. That if that's their worst? It can still be beaten.

God. I don't know. I suck at being all "blah blah hope blah blah it'll be fine" since it's usually bullcrap. But I guess I'm just saying. What happened sucked, but it's not like...the most hopeless thing ever.

They're scared. That's what I think. It's why they went this far. I dunno if we're on to something but we must have done something right to make them do something that drastic.

Because you know what I think? They're demanding we be thankful? They need us to. I don't know why yet, but it's necessary for whatever system they've got going on. Think about it. The demand for conformity, the droning to what's desired if we don't. They need us to be here and act a specific way, because if we don't....well, I dunno. I think that it's that if we exist here for long enough, not doing what they want? We compromise their system. They need us to behave a certain way or something doesn't stick, or the stability of this place'll start going off, or something.

That's what I think.

Hey. Idiots. And I'm pretty sure you know which ones I'm talking to? Not that I care or anything, but call me if you can, y'know, manage to use the phone.

Comments

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

I have seen such desperation. If praise is needed, they gain strength from it.

Or, it is mad man with complex.

Either way, without it they may implode.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

..I'm not sure it's strength, in a conventional sense, but that's kinda what I think they're doing.

More like...using it to power this place, than anything.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Strength, power, same thing.

I wonder, if one was worshipped more, would they take over.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

....That's...actually an interesting theory.

Because the person running it right now? Lucy Smith? Was apparently worshipped as a god in another town before coming here. So it could possibly work.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

She was? What evidence was found?

And it could be worth a test. Gods are jealous things. You could learn much by how they react to someone trying to replace them.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Apparently a picture was found of people worshipping her as a god.

...Huh. Guess that makes sense.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

That does seem to fit.

So, how do we bait this god into revealing her weakness?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...I don't know yet.

Really, the best thing I can think of so far is to keep doing what we've been doing and forcing her to desperation.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

It sounds like dangerous but simple plan. Probably best plan.

Convince everyone to avoid feeding her need.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Exactly.

If that's what she's afraid of? Let's feed her her fear til she bursts from it.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

I agree.

Why not raise false idols and others as worshiped? Keep her jumping at threats from all directions.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

That could work, but the problem'll be getting people to, you know. Agree to worship one other person.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Did no one worship gods back home?

Maybe we need no person to be false idol, just pray to old gods or find belief.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

People already do that though, I think. I think it'd have to be someone elevated here if that were even to work.

Don't really know. Not exactly a "god" person myself.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Church changes up too. Maybe it doesn't want single religion to be strong.

That is why even god of controlled town won't last. Too many people are not "god" people.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

That's possible. If worship really is something Lucy thrives off of, it might need to keep one religion from being dominant.

There is that. And that's why she's trying to force it, probably .

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Probably. It is sad, really.

This is way of things, no matter how much you fight it will not last forever.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...Maybe it's for the best they don't.

If something can be lost, and fade, it still has a beauty to it, right? Like it was here and gone. It's unique.

If something's around forever....what's the point? It's just there. It just becomes a shadow.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

That is true.

Though I may be bitter old man, but you can keep beauty. Some long for days when they were strong and felt invincible.

It is not hard to know what they feel, when their powers fades and forever gives way to inevitable.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

After ignoring beauty for so long? Yeah. I do think I'd like to understand it better by now. It's kind of nice, going from bitterness to actually caring about things.

It happens to everyone, and everything, I guess.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

That is your right, to change and to decide what is best for you.

Gods do not have such rights. They are what they are believed to be. When people change, they get left behind.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

So what? If they get left behind, then isn't the only thing left to change the god the god itself?

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Gods are not people. They don't get to change, they just continue to do what they do and exist. Maybe, one day, even that goes away.

People have privilege to move on and pick new gods.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

....I think I can understand that.

[Existing for four hundred years without changing or growing at all? Yeah. He thinks he has an idea.]

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

This child may be trapped as that, thus she is desperate to not be left behind.