58 - Phone

[ceasetoexist]

I lived through it. All of it.

I guess when I first got here I would have said that to brag, but now I guess I want to say....I dunno. That if that's their worst? It can still be beaten.

God. I don't know. I suck at being all "blah blah hope blah blah it'll be fine" since it's usually bullcrap. But I guess I'm just saying. What happened sucked, but it's not like...the most hopeless thing ever.

They're scared. That's what I think. It's why they went this far. I dunno if we're on to something but we must have done something right to make them do something that drastic.

Because you know what I think? They're demanding we be thankful? They need us to. I don't know why yet, but it's necessary for whatever system they've got going on. Think about it. The demand for conformity, the droning to what's desired if we don't. They need us to be here and act a specific way, because if we don't....well, I dunno. I think that it's that if we exist here for long enough, not doing what they want? We compromise their system. They need us to behave a certain way or something doesn't stick, or the stability of this place'll start going off, or something.

That's what I think.

Hey. Idiots. And I'm pretty sure you know which ones I'm talking to? Not that I care or anything, but call me if you can, y'know, manage to use the phone.

Comments

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...Maybe it's for the best they don't.

If something can be lost, and fade, it still has a beauty to it, right? Like it was here and gone. It's unique.

If something's around forever....what's the point? It's just there. It just becomes a shadow.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

That is true.

Though I may be bitter old man, but you can keep beauty. Some long for days when they were strong and felt invincible.

It is not hard to know what they feel, when their powers fades and forever gives way to inevitable.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

After ignoring beauty for so long? Yeah. I do think I'd like to understand it better by now. It's kind of nice, going from bitterness to actually caring about things.

It happens to everyone, and everything, I guess.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

That is your right, to change and to decide what is best for you.

Gods do not have such rights. They are what they are believed to be. When people change, they get left behind.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

So what? If they get left behind, then isn't the only thing left to change the god the god itself?

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Gods are not people. They don't get to change, they just continue to do what they do and exist. Maybe, one day, even that goes away.

People have privilege to move on and pick new gods.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

....I think I can understand that.

[Existing for four hundred years without changing or growing at all? Yeah. He thinks he has an idea.]

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

This child may be trapped as that, thus she is desperate to not be left behind.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

You're right.

She probably is.




That doesn't excuse her actions.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

No, it does not.

Pity her, but do not forgive.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Then we're on the same page.

I'm Pokey Minch. You got a name, mister?

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

I am glad to find one so wise here.

I am Czernobog.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...Wise. Sure.

Anyway, you been here long? I'm assuming not.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Wise, experienced, same thing.

I have not been here long. I came in time for big bomb, angry cannibals and then death by poison all around.

It is interesting.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

I've kinda come to find they're actually pretty different.

Heh.

Interesting is one way to put it.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

I always thought they come hand in hand. You can't be wise without experiencing things.

It is interesting to man who lived life one way and expected to end life in usual way.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

But you can experience things without becoming wise.

Yeah? And what's the usual way you're talking about?

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Forgotten, fading away and left for new things.

Or dead, in alley, with bullet from mugger in guts.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Sounds like a fun time.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Chicago is not kind place.

Though only desperate person would mug old man in old, cheap clothing.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Desperate or just serious a-holes.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

Very true. I have known many such A holes.

I am not fan of guns, though. Even if they do deter certain bad folk from certain bad ideas.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Yeah? Funny story. So have I.

...They're alright. I kinda suck with 'em, so hey. Can't say much about how useful they are.

[change-seasons.livejournal.com]

It is just new tool to preform old job.

Old tools still work, even if out of style.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Eh, got that right.

But I'm someone more interested in the "new", I gotta admit.