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[ceasetoexist]

"Yeah yeah blah blah this is Pokey leave me a message I guess."

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[lovepowered]

[...oh no oh no WHAT IS SHE DOING.]

I'm so sorry!! I didn't know!

[Immediately, she hangs up. And doesn't call back!]

[echidna]

[ ringa linga dinga ]

[ceasetoexist]

So I was going to think of something clever to say but I can't think of gold all the time. I may be a treasure trove but there's still only so much there.

So yeah who is this?

[echidna]

[ you can practically hear her rolling her eyes. ]

Oh, just Jade.

[ceasetoexist]

Oh good nothing important then. What's up with you, nerd?

1/2

[echidna]

Yeah well hello to you too, jerkass!

[echidna]

I saw your- Frances, right? Is back. I talked to her! She seems interesting.

[ceasetoexist]

She isn't mine. She isn't anybody but her own, hopefully.

And she is. She's great.

I don't know if I'm happy she's back or not this is a filtered conversation between just us right?

[echidna]

I didn't mean.... [ frustrated little huff, and quietly grumbled: ] Nevermind.

Yeah, just between us.

[ceasetoexist]

Sorry.

It's just really. Really really weird, okay? I know you didn't mean anything by it. I just.

[His voice cracks a little bit, but he takes a short sucking breath to steady it again.]

It's just weird.

[Because there's a lot of other things he wants to say on it. But won't allow himself to.]

[echidna]

Yeah.... weird.



Are you okay?

[ceasetoexist]

I don't know. I just-

I feel guilty. I guess. I've wanted to see her again and now here she is but...it's like I've condemned her to a death sentence being her. What if she's here because I wanted it and the town knew it could use that to hurt me?

[Because of course, he is the center of everything and anything that happens must ultimately end in some way to punish him.]

[echidna]

You shouldn't feel guilty. And anyway, I don't think that's how people ending up here works.

[ceasetoexist]

[He wants to argue with her. To argue that she doesn't know and how he can't help but be afraid that his actions will punish the people he cares about. Has been afraid of it since Christmas two years ago when that was the delusion the town forced him under.]

Yeah. Okay.







Are you okay?

[echidna]

[ Jade chooses not to answer that question. ]

I wouldn't worry, anyway. She sounds like she can more than handle herself.

[ceasetoexist]

Yeah. If anyone can, she could.





I'm sorry.

[echidna]

Sorry?

[ceasetoexist]

For...I don't know. Just being me. Being the way I am. I just. I don't know.

I don't know.

[echidna]

Um... it's okay. I like you the way you are.

[ceasetoexist]

I like you too. I just.

I can't help liking her as much as I do, okay? I just can't.It's not anything about you it's me and...

I don't know. Maybe I owe you an explanation. Or a talk.

[echidna]

I... [ It's the topic she's been skirting around, and the one she knew was inevitable, but she can't help wincing a little when it's finally brought up. ] Maybe. If you want.

[ceasetoexist]

...I. No. It's about what you want.

[He's trying. He's trying to be considerate and find some practical way to handle this and he just doesn't know how.]

[echidna]

It's alright.

I shouldn't have called, I think. Sorry.

[ceasetoexist]

No, please. Please.

[He's not even sure what he's trying to say at the moment. He knows what it is he wants to get out but it's so hard.]

You didn't do anything wrong. It's all me, okay? It's all me. And I'm not worth caring about on this.

[echidna]

It's fine, okay? I said it's fine, so it is.