59 - Action/Phone

[ceasetoexist]

[Action; Locked to 502 Ricardo]

[Well. Someone's pissy and annoyed after last night's dream. And because of that? Pokey is loud as hell as he gets up and storms off to the kitchen, somehow making a mess as he prepares a bowl of cereal for breakfast. Just fuming.]

[Phone]

Oh wow you morons put two and two together. Guess what? The town is probably brainwashing you idiots into thinking people aren't here. Whatever we were promised, we didn't get zip. I can't speak for anyone else but, uh, I'm legit. So stop running around like morons acting like anyone here is a clone or something.

[Action, Around Town]

[Pokey is busing running around like a moron, trying to search out the people he knows and see who was or wasn't replaced. So far? He isn't happy about the results, and he's busy hustling through the streets pushing over anyone in his way to see who's still here.

Picky? Slugger? Yeah, he'll also be heading for both your houses soon.]

[OOC: Pokey's been erased, so he'll seem like one of those doppelgangers yep.]

Comments

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

That's not what I mean.

[Talking ameliorated the effect somewhat. Lucas glances up at the sky.]

If no one believes we're real... then we don't exist, do we? To everyone else, we have stopped existing. If something is black, but everyone in the world believes it's white... does it still matter that's it black?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

[Pokey thinks on it a moment, his shoe tapping the snow-covered ground, leaving an imprint as he thinks.]

...That's possible, but it has no practical application.

...What if what they've been doing us hasn't been torturing us just to torture us. What if the praise they wanted wasn't just pride. What if it actually had a purpose?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

Do you really believe in the soul vat? I know the Mayor was talking about power, but that meant the simulation, right? If they needed to save power, we really would be gone...

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...I dunno. I didn't see it first hand. But it's not like it's out of the question.

...We don't know that for sure. Who knows what they're actually doing. ...It could be a con, and they're waiting to pull some crap to make people happy. Maybe they're going to have us "reappear" sometime later in the week, try to make everyone happy and thankful to them.

Because maybe giving praise does give them power.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...I know I shouldn't be talking, but I don't think machines can run on emotions. If they wanted praise... they wouldn't be doing this kind of thing to us all the time, right?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

....You'd be surprised. There are machines that can do a lot with emotions.

...It's a bullies mindset. If you pick on someone enough, but then give them a scrape back? They think you'll eventually be grateful to them.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...I still think it would be easier to rain ice cream from the sky.

[Somehow, this conversation was much easier with the feeling that this was someone other than Pokey. Perhaps something good came out of this after all.]

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Yeah, cause you're a decent person, I guess.

That's not what desperate people think of, most times.






...I think I understand them, sometimes.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...Maybe you're overthinking it. Trying to understand them might not be very useful when we've never met the real bad guy behind it.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

I don't mean it that way.

[He doesn't understand them in trying to figure out what they're doing. He's thinks he understands them in the why, at least on a personal level in some ways. After all, even Grady was a traitor who betrayed everyone he cared about in order to go with what he thought was the better choice or sure thing in succeeding and staying alive.

Pokey can get that.]

I don't know what's going to happen with this. [In regards to himself, he doesn't care.] I can't even make a guess. I just wish someone had some idea as to where to go next.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...

Maybe we really will disappear. ...Or maybe everyone really will forget us soon. Whatever happens... at least no one's going to go through it alone.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Yeah. It's great. Whole bunch of people disappearing. Great there's a bunch of us and not just one. It'll be like a party.

[He can't take this any more. He's going to begin to try and walk off now.]

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...If it makes you feel any better, you're the one person in town I could never forget.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

....No. It doesn't help.

[He stops. And turns around, furious.]

I wish no one remembered me, or had reason to. Especially you. That would make me feel better.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

[That was sort of the reaction he was going for. Lucas feels a bit ashamed about being manipulative, but he nods slowly.]

Is that why you agreed?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

[If he realizes he's being manipulated, Pokey doesn't show it. Or it simply doesn't matter by this point, when so much has already been said.]

To make me feel better? No.

....Not entirely. I just-I wanted to do the right thing and-

[Make people happy. But he stops, and just shakes his head, sneering.]

...I don't want to talk about this.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...

We should. Maybe not now, but. ...What you're thinking isn't the right way, either.

Redemption doesn't mean you have to lose yourself.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

This doesn't have to do with redemption this has to do with something else and it's none of your business.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...Maybe you're right.

But if it's my fault you started thinking about friendship and things... it's my fault if you might want to die because of it, too.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

You know that is....

The dumbest thing I've ever heard. Are you serious?

And, uh, if we're playing this game....why exactly do you apparently have the right to throw your existence away but I don't? What's wrong with you?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...The point of interacting with you wasn't to make you feel like you shouldn't exist, Pokey. If you honestly only did it because you cared about your friends and family and world, then... that's fine.

But if any part of it was because you feel guilty or like you ought to be erased, then... that's not OK.

The reason you do something is important, too.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah I must be doing it because of you! It must all be because of your stupid world, huh?

[He wipes his eyes with his sleeve, gritting his teeth to keep from sniveling. He's so angry right now, and upset and...he doesn't want this fake of the stupid future boy to see that.]

Well it was! Some of it was, okay? But I have people here too that I c-care about and I just wanted to give them something! That's all I wanted! They deserved something better and they deserve a better friend than me! I'm not even a real existence by this point! It's meaningless, so I'd try to leave something with meaning there instead!

Happy now? Are you happy now?

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

...Not really.

[Lucas lowers his head a little.]

I think I made a mistake. I think... convincing you that friendship was important without showing you all the other things that makes it what it is... love, hope, forgiveness... That wasn't the right thing to do.

Your friends wouldn't be happier if you were gone. Your friends are your friends because... they like you.

Have you talked to them any of them at all yet? ...They're all really angry at you, right? And you know the reason is because they don't want a replacement or a fake or to forget you existed. They want you.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

[He has. And they were. And in between his self-righteousness, his selfishness, and the belief that he has to be right on this...he still isn't fully sure how to process that.]

It doesn't matter. I'll ruin it in the end. I ruin everything. It's better to give something while I still can and still care before everything goes wrong.

[a-gentle-boy.livejournal.com]

Whether or not you ruin something is up to you. Don't you see? You really do have a chance to give something, if you can only see what it is that you have to give.

[He pauses for a moment or two before fumbling around in his pocket for what he had been playing with earlier. After a few moments, he holds out a battered old yellow yo-yo.]

Ness never gave up on you.

You shouldn't give up on yourself.