46 - Event Stage 4 - Phone

[ceasetoexist]

You know something? Since the rest of you are all letting crap off your chest? Yeah, there's something I gotta say. And I've thought it a lot, but I've never said it. And I think I oughta.

[A small beat. Then...]

I deserve to be here. With all the evil junk I've done, yeah. I belong here. Cause I'm a dangerous little nutbag.

And I have done a whole lot of evil junk back home. Like, I bet I've done a lot more then a lot of the villains here have done. And there's a lot of villains here. For starters, back home I:

[No one can see it, but he starts counting off on fingers as he lists his accomplishments into the phone. It's almost rhythmic, how he's speaking.]

Helped a cult try and perform a human sacrifice.

Conned a business mogul into helping alien invaders try and kill my next door neighbor and his friends, who had been chosen to save the world.

Had been working with said alien invaders to help conquer and ultimately destroy the planet.

Aaaaand when that didn't work out I decided to run away into different time periods like a loser in the time machine I stole.

That's pretty much it for the things back home, aside from all the times I've lied, cheated, or stolen something, which was a lot. Here, I've pretty much lied, cheated, and stolen a lot too. Haven't gotten to do much evil aside from destroy a lot of public property because of my anger issues like a cry baby, aaaaand I've killed the drone of my best friend here. Twice. And that dork with the glasses during the whole letter thing. Which I felt bad about but I mustn't really of since I still did it anyway even if the killing blow was an accident. Because me doing anything right is a long shot anyway.

So yeah. Kinda deserve this, or any punishment I get.

Comments

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...It started when I made my first friend last July. It was small, and usually not there, but being friends with her planted the seed for it and it just...kept growing. And growing. Like a weed. And I couldn't kill it.

And more people came and it just kept growing.

I think it settled in fully in March. After the Dairy thing.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

Are you afraid of your conscience?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

No. More like angry at it. For proving me wrong.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

How did it do that?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Because I realized that everything I had been doing? That I thought was the right way to get things? Was stupid. And it would've been so much easier if I had a conscience in the first place. To do anything.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

...it's never fun to realize things like that.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

[Well that was unexpected.]

This place is stupid in general.

I guess I'm just using that as an excuse for everything I've done here, though.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

That's not uncommon.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Probably not. Most people don't want to admit when they're actually wrong.

....Why does this keep happening?

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

Why does what, keep happening?

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

The whole thing with me getting killed by someone, then eventually having civil conversations with them.

It's annoying.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

Why would you rather I was trying to kill you?

Because I'd say that could easily be arranged but quite frankly it'd probably only be an empty threat.

What's the point in killing someone if they just come back, again and again. It doesn't solve problems it just makes new ones.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Honestly yes. I can deal with and understand hatred.

I know. That sucks too.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

Well it won't happen again I'm afraid. So you'll have to find someone else to murder you in their spare time. I'm sure that won't be hard for you.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

No. Probably not. I'm used to it by now.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

Maybe if you stopped acting like such a brat people wouldn't want to kill you all the time.

Just a thought.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Maybe if you stopped acting like such a witch, your conscience would shut up.

You ever think of that?

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

I'm sure she'd find some new way to harass me.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

...The point I was trying to get at is that's it's as easy for me to change who I am as it is for you. Meaning it's hard as crap.

But I guess that's true too.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

Well at least I'm trying.

[.....shut up Caroline.]

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Yeah well I am too. I want to. But it sucks because of how hard it is.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

It really does.

I'll never understand how it's so easy to try and kill someone, but trying to apologize for doing it is nearly impossible.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Once you try and kill someone, you've kind of crossed a line. For normal people at least, I guess.

At least you've only got to worry about trying to apologize for trying to kill them.

[getsciencedone.livejournal.com]

Yes well she's a special case I suppose. And she did manage to kill me in the end so I think we're even....even if I did try and kill her again the moment she woke me up.

Well it's rather hard to apologize to dead people. Though I suppose I should be apologizing to you.

I'm sorry for killing you. Though to be fair, I wouldn't have done it at all if you hadn't hit me.

...I wonder if that will shut her up for a while.

[godisachild.livejournal.com]

Its fine.

I kind of deserved it. And I've died in worse ways.